Yes, I'm not dead. I'm just a typical blogger, excited at the outset, yet swiftly overtaken, like footprints in wet sand, by the sea of day to day life. Crappy metaphors like that are perhaps why nobody has purchased my book and a half. That, plus their sentences are too long and their vocabulary too advanced for the target age range, plus I don't have a target age range, I write to please myself, via the genre, if you will, of children's fiction. At the moment, at least. Plus a whole bunch of other reasons, like I don't know how to reformat and re-up it since evil italics appeared, apparently of their own volition, in the original version I uploaded, causing a reader to complain that it didn't look right on...whoa, what was that? A reader? Did you say my story had a reader? Somebody looked at The Nose Plumbers' Tale long enough to spot some formatting errors? I love you, Alice B Toklas, or whoever it was that opened my e-book, even for a brief moment, to glance at the complex assortment of letters and paragraphs and ideas, just long enough to go, "Eeuurrggghhh, that looks horrible..." and get straight onto Amazon's customer service department to complain and have it removed from e-sight at e-once.
And with my return, you'll note for a post title we take a step down in the pantheon of songwriters, reaching - some fathoms below Neil Young - the equally not-dead-but-not-producing-new-stuff-either-so-perhaps-that's-as-good-as Billy Joel. I'm thinking you don't need my opinion of Billy's work, but heck, this is a blog, so (a) I can write what I like, and (b) you're all probably so young you weren't around when he WAS putting out albums (remember them?) - so here's My Billy Joel in a children's fiction length paragraph (with inappropriate, or at least irrelevant, content, and a moral, which always puts them off):
Billy was a Piano Man. He practiced his scales and made up some tunes. He married three women (so he was only half the man Henry VIII was) and wrote songs about all of them. For me, his best wife was number one, because the song he wrote about her was best of them (though number two's was the biggest hit). But for me, his best album by a long way is 12 Gardens Live, a double CD of tunes he really cared about when belting them out at Madison Square Garden in 2006. This was 13 years after his last studio effort, which it didn't (and doesn't) sound like he much cared about. The well had run dry - tragic when you think how he went on to dampen his well, no matter what Elton John advised him. Still, for twelve nights at the Garden, the old Billy was back - a semitone lower in voice, but...well, I wouldn't mind being able to play the piano like that. (In fact, some people will tell you I can play the piano like that, and they're kind, but I'd need to invest time and practice, enrol in Ben Folds 101, stuff like that. Much easier to continue to vamp like I'm wearing Matt Prior's gloves...) My cousin met Billy's daughter Alexa when she guested on a radio show in New Jersey a couple of years back, she sang a couple of her songs, shot the breeze...Cuz said she's a very nice girl, but armchair psychology such as I practice has no place on this blog, so let's leave it at that, and wish her well in her hair shirt career choice.
Anyway, having returned, what do I have to say? Why indeed have I re-emerged? I'm a private soul, blessed with little need for anonymous affirmation. Fact is, I couldn't sleep. Why couldn't I sleep? Guilt? Indigestion? Neither of the above. I have an important meeting tomorrow, and traditionally I cannot sleep the night before an important meeting. I believe it to be a form of self-sabotage. I would like the meeting to go well - it's not as if I'm trying to book ahead an excuse for it going terribly. I'm not a teenager. I can take failure on the chin, or almost any other part of the anatomy you care to name, and accept the real reason, whatever it is. I would like the meeting to go well. So I don't know what's going on. And despite the help of those nearest (not right now, she went to sleep in another room in order to help) and dearest to me, here I be. Listening to the birds cracking dawn (and jokes, maybe - I don't speak bird). The meeting is not until midday, so I can sleep in. But once my brain knows this, it resists sleep for a little longer. Complicated, huh. I shall have to go into the meeting baggy-eyed, slow of thought, a beat or two behind where I need to be (like a Billy Joel song circa 1993, in fact). I shall muddle through, inexpertly, insufficiently inspirational, in the way I do. Don't go changing... (what did Billy Joel say to the traffic light as he approached it at speed...?)
And so it goes...
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